If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it. - Mary Engelbreit

I had a bit of a rough May.  I was put in an awkward situation where my success at school was reliant on getting a pass from someone who could only be described as sexist, homophobic, Islamophobic, and just an all around not really great person.  What made it even more awkward is the fact that she liked me, and was therefore nice to me.  So I had to be around this person every day who would spew what I could only describe as disgusting things, and couldn't do anything about it or else I'd fail.  Finally, on my last day, I was able to speak up a bit, which was a fantastic feeling.

Today, in one of my classes, a fellow classmate started saying very similar homophobic things.  I could feel the tension, and I knew that what he was saying directly affected a fellow classmate.  I couldn't hold in what I was thinking or feeling anymore, and very reasonably questioned this classmate.  As soon as I started, other classmates started to object to what he was saying as well.  Afterwards, several came up to me and thanked me for saying something, and said that it gave them courage to say what they wanted to say as well.

It made my heart smile to hear other people standing up for the rights of others and to know that sometimes all it takes is one voice to break the silence.

Attitudes are contagious. Are yours worth catching? - Dennis and Wendy Mannering

One of my teachers won an award for her amazingly contagious and inspirational work.  It made my heart smile to see her being recognized for her work.  I can't think of anyone more deserving.

Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy. - Robert Brault

The past month has been absolutely crazy.  I'll just do a quick break down of the ups and downs of 2013 so far:

• Got an internship that I'm feeling really good about.
• Broke up with my boyfriend (a positive thing, though still a down).
• Start applying for adult jobs.

And.... Wait for it...

Got a job as a Middle School Social Studies teacher in Kuwait!

So it's been crazy.  I've been having a hard time trying to figure out where my head is at, but have still been enjoying those small little moments that make me smile every single day.  Today it was seeing a friend that I haven't seen in over a year.  It was great catching up with her over amazing Caribbean food!  I hope to see her again sometime soon to hear about how her interview went.

Laughter is the shortest distance between two people. - Victor Borge

I don't really like presentations.  I always get super nervous, my hands shake, and I'm pretty sure that everyone is bored to death by what I'm saying.

Today I did a PowerPoint presentation on different cultures' weddings.  I picked three, thought they were interesting, but the students looked board out of their minds.  After the presentation, I had them read a newspaper article on one of the groups and how the elders in the community were concerned that their traditions were being tossed aside and that more Westernized ideas were taking their place.  The students then did a think, pair, share about it.  While they were pairing off, I walked around to see what people were saying.  I got to one part of the class, and two of the students said that I should teach every day, and the classmates sitting around them all agreed.  It made my heart smile to see that what I'm doing isn't for waste, and that the students do enjoy it (in hindsight, I should've realized the students were enjoying the presentation because they were all pretty silent during it, even though they didn't have to write any notes).

(Also, I did a 3-2-1 exit card, and for the 1 I asked for them to write one thing they enjoyed about the lesson.  One of the students wrote, "Learning about different weddings, and your laugh."  That also made me smile.)

A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort. - Herm Albright, quoted in Reader's Digest, June 1995

My first moment happened sometime last week.  I was on my way home on the bus after school, and the bus driver pulled over and ran into a store.  He left the door open and someone entered the bus while the driver was away.  What made my heart smile was that the person who came onto the bus, even though the driver was away, still paid.  There's so many stories about people being dishonest, but here was a case where a person was being honest when they could've gotten away with lying.  It was just such a nice thing to see.

All week I have been incredibly stressed and sick.  It's just not a good mix and hasn't been a whole lot of fun.  Yesterday I stayed up super late to finish two lesson plans and was really worried that my AT would think they were flops.  I wasn't looking forward to getting them passed by her, but couldn't think of any other way to get the information to the students.  I tentatively showed her my lesson plan, and immediately after reading my first questionable plan, she said, "Love it.  Keep it in."  My heart smiled to know that my work was appreciated and that she has faith in the work that I come up with, even when I don't.  (It also made my heart smile because it means I don't have to redo it tonight, so instead of been cuddling with my cat since she's been neglected lately).

Happiness is not a goal; it is a by-product. - Eleanor Roosevelt

As I've written already, the school and work load is pretty intense right now.  It seems that most of my time is spent doing only academic or work related stuff.  Not really how I enjoy spending my time...

So a little break is always welcomed.  Today a group of us from class went out afterwards for some food and drinks.  It's nice getting to see people outside of the classroom, talking about stuff that's not school related.  It sort of humanizes all of us and is a nice reminder that we're more than just what we read for class.  My heart was smiling so much during our lunch, that I didn't want to leave!  I'm looking forward to more opportunities to get to know my classmates, especially those I haven't had the chance to really chat with so far.

Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things. - Robert Brault

For the last couple of weeks, it seems as though the only times I leave the house is when I absolutely have to.  I have to go to school, go to work, or got to family's for dinner.  It's not just been about going out just because.  And that gets kind of exhausting.  In fact, I've started to just not want to go out, and instead staying in when I don't have to be somewhere.  Which is good, but also not really all that good because I then start to only do school work when I'm home, so that eventually it feels like every waking minute is consumed by school and work.

Which is why today was so nice.  After school and work, I went out with Chris for dinner and a movie.  It was nice for that little bit to be out in the world and not doing something that needed to be done.  There was no task involved.  Also, the movie was rather entertaining and enjoyable.

So the smiling heart moment for the day was being able to do something that I didn't have to do, and enjoying it.  It was small and simple, but it gave me a much needed break.